I’m not a fan of New Year’s Resolutions.
My issues are many (hence the ‘s’ on the end of the word issue).
However, this past fall I engaged in YouVersion’s 4-day devotional plan One Word That Will Change Your Life.
I was intrigued by its simplicity.
I mean really. It’s just one word.
I was haunted by its timing in my life.
many some ways, I feel the past 4 months have enabled me to take a vacation from the real world. And not in a good way.
I was captivated by its meaningfulness. And encouraged by its promise.
I want to do this ‘life thing’ well; wandering aimlessly, letting life happen to me simply is not working. So when I read, …simplicity and focus lead to success and clarity, I felt hopeful.
And now to self disclosure on the whole New Year Resolution thing. Even though I began the study in September, I waited until now…December 31st (you know…the day before the new year) to move forward with it.
But in my defense, this “One Word” thing is hardly a resolution.
It’s more of a vision statement. A vision statement of—you guessed it—exactly one word.
So last night I continued the process I began this past fall.
I brainstormed a rather impressive list of what I needed to focus on.
- connecting to others
- focusing outward and upward
- being courageous
- following through with my thoughts
- setting goals
- taking risks
And then, I asked myself what was getting in my way.
- fear of failure
- uncertainty of what God wants me to do with my life
- not knowing or understanding the whole picture of what I want to do
- lack of knowledge about how to accomplish things
- being an introvert
- afraid of the “what ifs”
The study encouraged me to:
- look inward (what do I need?)
- look upward (ask for guidance from the One who made me)
- look outward (where is there need? what can I do to make the world a better place?)
But unfortunately, none of this led me to my word.
I really wanted it to be written in the clouds or to wake in the middle of the night just KNOWING.
Alas, I finally resorted to the ‘faith informs decisions’.
So today, I went for a run. I emptied my mind the best I could (give me a little credit…some days there is a lot in there), and told God to just take over (ha…like he needed permission).
This is what came to me:
The stage of life I am currently in (new state, no job, no family or friends close by), is discomforting. My inactivity is leaving me feeling restless, purposeless, and unsure of myself.
In the past, I’ve relied on others to push me into activity. Whether it be a coworker at school encouraging me to create new curriculum or present in front of my peers, or a leader from church asking me to volunteer my time, or my extroverted friends inviting me to join a book club, I have always depended on others to keep me moving forward.
And right now, I feel my life is paused.
From here, I began thinking about how my word for 2019 was just one chapter of the book of Karen (the first chapter, but just one chapter).
It didn’t need to be the whole story.
But it needed to be the start.
I needed to begin somewhere.
So my word?
(‘Just Do It’ came to mind, but A.) Nike already ‘did it’, and B.) it’s more than one word.)
I am going to focus on experiencing my word, rather than perseverating on the possibility of failure.
I am going to create goals and figure out what I need to do to reach them.
I am going to take action.
And now for the accountability aspect. How am I going to hold myself accountable? How am I going to make sure that my word is more than a screensaver on my computer or a sticky note on my mirror?
H e l l o…
I just shared this with you.
Feel free to put me on the spot and ask how I am doing.
How about you? What’s your word?
I’d love to hear what you came up with and how!